"What's love, if you haven't discovered loving hard?!" - Wale

Hello!!

Allow me to re introduce myself.... My name is still Jovonda. I'm still in the process of creating the best possible life for myself and I'm searching for LOVE !   Yes, love, the kind that makes you say and do crazy things, that soul altering ,"I'll never be the same again"  type love.  I've been Single waayyyy too long!

I know there's Millionaire Matchmakers,  Tough Love (I adore the Ward family) and lets not forget E-harmony.   None of those sites can help me though!   Currently I am not looking for the type of love a man can give me.   So please don't try to match me up with any of your friends LOL (cause honestly I ain't ready).   What you can do is match me up with something that is going to light my soul on fire!!  And I strongly believe that something isn't necesarily walking or talking.   Its not tangible.  Its do-able.

Just give me something to be excited about and STAY excited about. Some where that I can work hard and smile at the results and the way I've changed.   I want to express myself and all the Love within me.  I believe that I have the capacity to love the whole world one day...everyone does.(Eat Pray Love .. watch it).   But I need to find that love within and deposit it into the universe so I can make a withdrawal.  And ultimately I want that love to be so strong that if affects everyone who comes into the presence of it!  Affect them in such a meaningful way that they believe that anything is possible for them .      

Simply put -  I NEED/WANT/WILL do something that I Love!

Sooner than later!

One more day!!! - Day 50

Tomorrow is probably going to be the best day of my life!  Even though it's my friend's Bday , its still the best day of my life!  I'm finally traveling on a plane..to party, reunite and love on all my girlfriends!   Believe it or not the thought of a fun filled weekend scared me.    Crazy, I know.  But I'm such an over thinker,  what will I wear? My hair..my shoes...will there be enough liquor flowing for my nerves to be eased... will I have fun.. will I mesh with the new girls?   That's the silly stuff that runs through my mind , miraculously I am not stressed at all about this trip.    I haven't packed, don't have new clothes , accessories, fighting with my hair and I just don't care!   Lol . I AM  going to have a GRAND time , probably wont even want to leave.  

BREAKING NEWS ALERT - WALE , my ultimate celeb crush, is going to performing at a club in the 'Urrea'!!!   If this isn't a sign that this weekend is going to be amazing, I don't know what is.

So its currently 7:48am,   I have worked out with my trainer, showered, juiced, read my emails and blogged. #Winning.  I feel great.   And I hope that you do too.  If you aren't just stop to give thanks, doesn't matter what it is for just say Thank you Jesus, Thank you Father. Since my personal New Year, I find myself just saying those words for no reason.  Well, excuse me,  there are plenty of reasons to be thankful  but I don't have one particular one in my mind when I am saying it.   Sometimes I just need a boost and those words just do it for me.   Thank you Lord.

Sidenote- I almost cried this morning, probably should have just let it out.  If you haven't already go and subscribe to The Daily Love emails.  The author was talking about vulnerability. Taking chances by being your authentic self and accepting the possibility of being abandoned. The affirmations of the day :
I choose to see things going wrong as a part of something great going right.

Chaos is my friend, I meet it with faith.

 

I enjoy not knowing what's going to happen next and take a step out in faith.

Remember when  I said I am currently struggling with some internal things. This email hit the spot. Really helped me to realize that everything is going to be okay.  I'm still scared though.....

Later today I will tell you about my  awkward, whack DATE! Lol , Are ready for this?


Have a blessed one!

Happy New Year!!

Hiiii Blog, oh how I missed thee!!

Where have I been for the last few weeks? I don't know.  What weight have I lost? None.   What money have I saved?  $0.   What revelations have I had?  LOTS!    

Work brought me back to my beloved old stomping grounds, Tallahassee FL, for two weeks.  In those two weeks I made a road trip to Panama City Beach and Jacksonville, to visit some old friends.   Labor day weekend was the wildest, funniest, weirdest, and most thought provoking weekend I have had in a long time.   Two of my really close friends live in Duval and we always have a GRAND time when we get together.  De and E!  I love these women, being with them makes me feel so blessed.  God has given me great friends who are just all around positive people .  De and E have HUGE dreams and even Bigger goals  for their life and I know they can and will accomplish anything they set their mind to.  Watch out world, these are two super successful Naturalistas!

I was so inspired by my friends. I miss them and their energy... directly and indirectly they both gave hope for the future. Let me know its okay to start over , forget the past and re-label yourself.   That's so refreshing.    

So I toasted to Labor Day 2011 being my personal New Year!       

Let's see ,  I rehired myself in both work places.  I am starting fresh with weight loss, hired a personal trainer and got a gym membership (Gary is awesome!).  I've also been secretly going through some really personal stuff. Without putting it all out there, --I struggle with being proud of myself and attaching my feeling of success to what I have or haven't done in the past.  I am not kind to myself and I want to forget everything and just keep moving forward. I want to hold my head high, no matter what and I want God's glory to manifest through me.   I am nothing without him, foolish and weak.  But if he can get me through this and allow me to come out on top and full of Godly Confidence(NOT self confidence); I will share my story with the world , giving him all the Glory and honor.  

Ahhhhhhh.... I forgot how good it feels to write out my feelings.  I have fallen back in love with you , Blog. And I promise never to let you go. 

Sidenote-- I went on a date. I should update about that!!  I think I will ;-) 

Quick Sum up - Day 22

TODAY'sQUOTES

"You will never demonstrate [abundance] until behind your mental attitude is the belief that you have received before you have received that thing which is sought". "Clear out all the suggestion of limitation, and the belief in poverty and lack, and the belief that "I have to work for a living". These things hypnotize people and bind them. The whole thing is impersonal... Don't acknowledge bondage. If you meet a successful man, you will find that this man has a consciousness of success. He never talks about poverty and limitation. If you meet a man who is not a success, he is always talking about failure. Don't let people talk to you about failure. If a man wants to be sick and poverty stricken, that's his own business." - Ernest Holmes, was an American writer and spiritual teacher.

MASTIN'SDAILYDOWNLOAD My name is Mastin Kipp & I am the Founder of The Daily Love. Photo by Brent Mullins.

"I am who I am, that is that. I am who I am thank God, I am". - Guru Singh Nobody can "make you feel" anything. What you feel about life and the people and situations of your life are the perceptions, decisions and interpretations that YOU BRING to life. Now, as a child, we don't know this. And so we grow up and assume that mom, dad, brother, sister, bully, world, government, boss, etc. have control over our thoughts and feelings. We are not taught that we are outsourcing our power. And then we step into blame and lose even more power. Our thoughts and emotions are an internal thing. Nothing "out there" can make you feel something "in here" without your consent. So, when it comes to people who we say have "made us" feel a certain way, it's time to stop saying that, feeling that and believing that. Right now, in this moment, it's time to take our power back. Whoever used to "make you feel" a certain way, their days in your head and controlling your emotions are over. Let's stop and see what decisions we made in the past about how we would let other people effect us. Let us talk to that younger version of ourselves and tell our younger self that we love it, and that we are now in control. Let us apply an empowering meaning to the past and take back our power. Let us recognize how we have decided to outsource our power and blame others. Let us take back the blame of others and take responsibility for our actions. Let us forgive ourselves for doing so and then forgive everyone else for their role in the trauma of our past. They didn't do anything "to us". They have simply acted and we have applied a meaning to their actions. We do not need to make extreme cases of abuse and violence right... That is not what I am saying.  What I am saying is that what happened, happened and it's time for a new meaning, so we can be free. If we let the traumas of our past dictate how we feel now, then they are still winning. No more. Let's let go. Let's take our power back, let's forgive ourselves, them and move on to living the joyful, abundant and beautiful life The Uni-verse has in store for us. Let me know how you're taking your power back: WhatImGoingThru@TheDailyLove.com Love, Mastin Take what resonates with you from the blog and leave the rest.  # # #    Want to life your life to the fullest? If you're ready for change, serious about investing in yourself and ready to work with a mentor send us an email. The TDL Mentoring program is intense and an investment. Serious inquires only.

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TODAY'sAFFIRMATIONS

I celebrate admitting when I'm wrong for I come one step closer to Love.   I focus on being Love, not making other people wrong.   I am always learning and getting better.

Mental Block- Day 21

21!!!  That number actually just changed my mood a tad bit.  Not much though.

I'm not in a very good mood right now.    Eff it!  I'm angry and I just want to scream.   Angry isn't the only emotion I am feeling right now. Bitter, confused, anxious, tired.   I usually don't get like this very often but today (not even the entire day)  just in the last few hours the anger overcame me.   On the car ride home from Business Training the feeling just over took me.

Sidenote: Omg Omg!!!  Rain on Me by Ashanti just played on my Pandora.  The lyrics are on point right now!!! I mean of course I'm not in a horrible relationship with someone that is sucking the life out of me.... Or am I ??   

I paid close attention to this feeling since it is not frequent.  Tried to pin point where it is coming from. What I found out is that I am mad at my damn self for a few reasons.

• I'm mad that I didn't win last month's competition. ( I wanted my damn T-shirt)

• I'm upset that its half way thru the month and I am no where close to winning this month's incentive! (Which would solidify my spot for an all expense paid trip to Universal Studios Orlando!! I mean everything paid for. My company is shutting down the park for just our people. No lines. Just Food and Fun for absolutely FREE!) 

• Mad that I'm 21 days in and although there has been a little movement and progress in my journey, I don't feel like I have put my all in or I am where I thought I should be by the 3rd week.     

• Work is slow and I have everything to do with that! Almost everything. Florida politics are pretty slow right now. But still ... have I been putting in my all? NO!

Okay but the biggest issue right now is when I get like this , I start to sulk even more in what I haven't done, what I don't have, my lack.   Instead of focusing on abundance. All these opportunities are still right in front of me but I am mentally blocked.   I just need to switch my perspective! And more importantly I need to believe in myself and everything that I do.    Perspective = Belief = Choices.   When your perspective changes , your belief changes and then you can make better choices.     I have not been believing!!  And I have not been speaking things into existence, in other words -- blessing that which I don't have yet.  That may be hard to believe because I have been really trying to encourage myself to get things done.  But I realized they aren't getting done because of my perspective which is effecting my belief system in every aspect of my life!!!    OKay , I'm calming down.


 I need to read some scriptures on Faith and seeing past your current situation.   If you know of any please comment with the verses. Thank you.


Good Night.

Gut Busters! - Day 17 & 18.5

Something is happening.   Something is growing.   And that something is my GUT!  Lol,  Not the few inches of fat surrounding my lower abdomen  but my intuition, my spiritual ear.  Here They come again ,  "Always follow your gut."   

I was laying in bed the other night trying to drift off to sleep and I started to think about all the things I have made decisions on.   I don't mean just saying " okay I don't want this to happen anymore" . I'm talking about D-E-C-S-I-O-N-S meaning I killed all other options. I came to terms with what I had been doing to cause the issue,  decided that it would never happen again and put in the work to make it happen.   Since I'm on an honesty streak,  that night I was thinking about how I made the decision to never overdraft my bank account EVER again!  When I sat down with a friend (same friend from the Wale story and whose Bday I recently celebrated) she helped me analyze my finances and see where my money was going.  I was spending hundreds of dollars a month in overdraft fees!!!   This has been an on going issue in my life forever.  But only recently had I actually said to myself , 'I can't keep doing this' .   I prayed a finance prayer , put in the work , and for over a month now my account has been in a positive standing with the bank.     It sounds petty and small but when I was thinking about all of this that night I had an Ah-Ha moment! 

My beautiful GUT , told me all you have to do is decide.   All you have to do is tell yourself enough is enough, realize what you want and just put in the work.   Simple as that.   We as humans usually make it harder than it has to be.    That was Wednesday night , same day I considered getting up even earlier to start my workouts. Guess what!  Thursday morning I rose at 5:45am with no hesitation , no grumbling and watched my favorite preacher, Joyce Meyer , drank my tea and was out the door in full workout mode by 6:30am!!!!!!     And all I did was decide . 

I was very surprised at myself because I am usually a slow do-er.   It takes me months and months to do what I thought about doing months ago.     But not any longer because my Gut is stronger!  LOL( that rhymed).     Harnessing this power in all the aspects of my 90 day journey is what I plan on doing next, today , right now. 

Brand New - Day 16

Morning!!!  

I am feeling brand new .. Like I just want to shout !  This new layout is absolutely spectacular and it was designed by a very special friend of mine.  The sassy, fashionable, ultra intelligent, author of The Linden Buzz took time out of her busy day to make my blog way more OFFICIAL and I can't thank her enough for it.

One thing I want to shout about -- I worked out this morning @ 7am!!  Go me!  I live in a small beach town in Sunny South Florida, so going any time after 7am would be brutal because of the heat.   My workout consists of a power walk about 1.4 miles to our Bicentennial Park that sits right on the intracoastal. Its so peaceful and quiet in morning.  I always look over the edge with hopes of seeing some of God's beautiful creatures. Today I got lucky and saw a family of jelly fish!  It was definitely a sight to see , I took pictures but can't figure out how to up load them to here.

2nd thing to shout about-  Once I reached my destination I pulled out my sheet of affirmations and read them while stretching at the park.  Double Whammy!   I'm all about maximizing my time , especially in the mornings.   I know this sounds crazy but on my walk back I was seriously contemplating rising even earlier to start my work out by 6:30am.  

Excitement to really complete my 90 day mission is taking over my entire mind body and soul!  (oK, Jo it took 15 days to get started)  But who cares as long as I don't quit.       Later today I'm going to post exactly where I am currently with all the things that I want to improve on .  Eeeek!

Have a blessed day.

Can I get a re-do ? - Day 15

I'm tired.

I ate Pizza today :'[

Not much else.


Currently overjoyed with the thought of sleeping and waking up. Tomorrow is a new day!

Sometimes you have to Encourage Yourself - Day 14

Isn't it A-Mazing how the Universe always and I mean always gives you what you need, exactly when you need it !   Never has the Universe ever failed me and I can boldly say the same for you too.

Lately I have been questioning the idea of really being able to live a life without Fear.  I have been asking myself , is it really possible to have an abundant life and have everything you need and want. Can all my goals be accomplished in 90 days just because I put it out into the Universe?  Do I have the complete power to change and create anything in my life?   YES YES YES!  The answer is Yes !     I know this , right?! Its everything I have been learning for about 2 years now.  

Today after business training, a few people, at different times gave me super encouraging words about how to make my business move and grow.   These were people I barely talk to , one of them I didn't even know .  But it was as if  the words "I'm down, out of the game and confused on how to jump back in "  were written all over my face.  Because everything they were saying to me was exactly what I have been thinking about for the last few days.  Living life on my own terms is right around the corner.  I just have to take action! 

I think this video sums it all up !  Take the 2 mins and watch it 

 I figured out that my belief dwindles because I am not doing anything to keep myself encouraged and excited.   A voice in my head told me to write down a few affirmations and get up in the morning and read them.   That was a few days ago and I didn't listen to the voice and now it just keeps getting louder.   Affirmations are soooo powerful.  They remind me of what I am working towards, how good it will feel when the my goals are accomplished and that I am a child of God.  A child who can speak what she wants into the Universe and with confidence in Him, I can expect to receive it all!   

Overall today was a good day.  I'm still not getting up early enough to work out!  ugh!!!!! I need motivation and self encouragement for my workouts.  Workout affirmations....anyone??

Got to write these affirmations. GoodNite All . Sleep tight. 

Sunday Funday! - Day 13

I'm back.

I love Sundays!  Church , relaxation , business conference call , then Midnight Meditation with Shanel Cooper Sykes. (Check her out and join in on the meditation!  She is a phenomenal woman, with a lot to say)  to clear my mind and start my week .
I won't bore you with all updates from the days I missed.  But I will say that I everything is coming together inch by inch.  There is a lot of balance required, a lot of sacrifice and plenty of faith needed to complete this journey.


The mini victories--   I have been sticking to my 11pm curfew during the week!   Eating much better!  Went grocery shopping last Wednesday and haven't spent money eating out = extra money to save.    
Victories that are yet to arise --  Rising early to get my workout in,  saving the money that I've saved (does that make sense?), 2 new names a day, 5 new trials a day, beauty days, game planning to really get  started to pay off my debt.....I'm gonna stop this list is out weighing my other list.   Which means the balance is off!

Champions make come backs though!

I’ve been reading a fascinating book by Steve Siebold titled 177 Mental Toughness Secrets of the World Class. He says,

CHAMPIONS ARE COMEBACK ARTISTS

Donald Trump was $9 billion dollars in debt in the early 1990s, did you really believe he was washed up for good? After Lance Armstrong survived cancer, did anyone really think he wouldn’t race again? How about Christopher Reeve? Did anyone really bet against him making an international impact to help people with spinal cord injuries, once he made the decision to do it? There’s an old saying among the world class: “A bet against a champion is a bad bet.” I couldn’t agree more. Amateurs quickly become demoralized by setbacks and defeat, and quietly slink back to their comfort zones. Professional performers know that large scale success is based on a series of comebacks. They believe that setbacks are set-ups for comebacks.

Do it! Do it! Do it!  ... I have no choice but to do it.   These blog updates(which I promise will start to come everyday) are the fun part . But Doing it is the only part that counts for something.

Romans 8:18 (Amplified Bible)   NITE! 

Did ya Miss me???

Sorry Sorry Sorry!  Its been over a week since I updated.    I apologize,  sincerely.  

I can't really even write right now .... Its early morning and all I can think about is death. Which ultimately means I am thinking of Life . Life then death.... life then death. Life then death.  Sometimes it feels like we'll stay forever ... but its soooo Temporary.     When you know things are going to end , you are a little more free with it.  You let loose and just have fun with it.    For example think of  a fun weekend trip that you've taken, miles away from your home . Remember that confidence, that I don't care attitude , the free as a bird feeling you get when you walk down the streets of a different city.  The fun guy that you are so flirty with , just because you know it will end.  All this audaciousness comes from the fact that you know it will all be over soon-- so why hold back.

Why hold back ever??  Life will end . Your life will end.  It could be tomorrow.  A year from now, 40 years from now...who knows.  To me not knowing is the beauty.    

" I am glad I was given the gift of today.  Only you know when this will all be over , Lord.  So help me and empower me to conquer everything set out for me today. To have no fear and walk with boldness. To be slow to anger and quick to smile. Today is an awesome day.   You gave me life today and I promise to give life back. "   #affirm New Morning Affirmation. 

Seriously. Take a 5 minutes and ask yourself, what would I do if I knew I'd be leaving here soon?

WTH!! - DAYS: 1, 2 & 3

"...that Devil sure is busy,"  said the old black church lady.     And she is 100% right.   Why Why Why!?   Okay I need to ask better questions , I came to the conclusion that its not why but HOW are all my super ambitious 90 day goals going to be accomplished?  Its definitely not by eating all types of food, staying out late, and drinking. 

  

Here's how the last 3 days have passed me by:

Day 1 - Tues July 26th 

No early morning workout . (My plan was to rise early in the mornings and get my workout in at 7am)

One new trial for work .  (I have a serious case of being easily distracted my surfing the web) 

No new names for my business ( Ugh!)

Hit Wet Willies with a friend for her birthday ( Only had one superman)

Stuffed my face with Smoked Chicken Nachos and Buffalo Wings

Went to Banana Boat to continue the festivities @11pm 

2 more drinks-Ladies Night drinks were free (rum and coke, then a corona) 

& lets not forget the Birthday Cake Shot that was on the house !  ( I asked for the recipe, I swear it tasted exactly like Chocolate Cake)

Had to take friend home and go to drive even further to take a cousin home. (Arrived in my bed at 2:30am)

Day 2 - Wednesday July 27th

Slept in till about noon!  ( Ugh! cheap liquor and late nights do not mix)

Got up showered and went straight into my office to start work (I work from home)

Hit my New Trial Goal ! 5 NEW!  (very proud of myself. I was soo determined not to make this a waste of a day 1:30pm-5pm)

Birthday Dinner @ Cafe Centro with the girls( Today was the actual birthday , yesterday was Pre-Gaming)

Dinner :  Beet Salad, Black Linguine, with calamari, shrimp, arugula in a spicy tomato sauce  (Lets not even count the calories, just know it was worth every last one =)

2 Glasses of Wine 

Dessert :  Gourmet Raspberry Cake with Cream Cheese Icing

Left dinner around 10pm

Went to visit a few more friends around 11pm .. chilled to about 1am 

Back home for the late night munchie session , in bed around 2am (AGAIN!)

Day 3 - Thursday July 28th

Woke up late again . 11am (No work out) 

Attended a Hispanic Journalist Social ( for work, in an effort to socialize and get new trials)

My team scheduled a Opportunity Meeting today before close of  business for the month ( I didn't attend, I had no guests invited because I have been goofing off all week)

Took a nap 

Deep conditioned my hair 

Now I'm writing this blog

Needless to say I am Extremely dissapointed with myself : -(   There should be no excuse for the horrible way I managed by time these past few days.  Little Voice in Head :  "But it was your best friend's birthday, you don't do this all the time. Don't beat yourself up about it." Yeah but I also don't ask God  to help me to change my life in 90 days all the time either. That little voice is the easy way out , excuses usually are, but let me remind you that excuses have a shelf life of about 24 hours.    And when I woke up this morning  afternoon , there was no excuse in sight to comfort me.   The ever wise group of people who refer to themselves as 'They'  told me that  Its not suppose to be easy, its suppose to be worth it.     And they are so right , once again.  

One of the leaders in my business also one of my awesome mentors who I will refer to as Poppa Jack had a conversation with me about the differences between us.  Poppa Jack can sit in his recliner all day and still  get paid out about a quarter Million each year.  Yet he doesn't sit around all day, he's still a very hard worker, still has goals to reach , that's why I admire him.   Granted this guy is a high school dropout , yet still figured out a way to create extraordinary wealth for himself and his beautiful family.    Plenty of differences (as you can see) but he refuses to believe that his wealth , education level, and/or age is the major different between him and I.    "I'm human, I get down on myself  just like you do and I have not so good moments just like you.  However the difference between you and I is how long I choose to stay down."    Wowwwww!  He continues " I don't let myself sulk for days , not even a hour for that matter.  I find the problem and I fix it immediately. Done."

I love him!    Here's what I need to fix :

• Late nights -- I promise to myself and everyone else I am in my bed no later than 11pm every single weekday. I might allow myself one weekend night to run a muck.  But that is it.
• Working out -- trickles down from the late nights. If I am in bed early I will be able to rise easily to get my workout in. My workouts are appointments that I can and will not miss #affirm
• Drinking during the week.   Just Say No.
• Not having my food for the day planned out.   Changing my eating habits for life is a decision. Decide - means to kill all other options
• Journaling or blogging this journey every single day.  Even if I can't write whole stories. At the very least, I promise to update with a brief overview of what I did for the day.  
• Oh and no web surfing during work.  I will give myself 5 minute web breaks when I hit goals. 

 

87 more days to go and I am already learning monumental lessons on this journey.   Commitment ,Commitment ,Commitment -  to make the decision before you have to make the decision.    #Thinkaboutit! 

Good Night.  Its 9 minutes past my bed time. 

The Power of 90 DAYS

I have a confession , a major one.   I am a non do-er.  I like to complain about stuff, talk about how much I want change and I never Ever accomplish anything.   Ahhhh wow!  I am really pleased with myself for being able to get that down and dirty and real about who I am, right now.    'They' say that is the first step-- admitting.  They then told me that  Step 2 is to make a plan and put it into action. (okay I made that up I don't know what they say about Step 2).    But One thing for sure is that I am tired of not living my life to its full potential.  If you know me then I am pretty sure you think of me as bubbly, colorful and full of life... I may be that on the surface but deep down I am and have always been screaming for a significant change.  The type of change that will raise my belief in the 'You can do anything you put your mind to'  principle.   I strongly believe that it is possible and I am going to make it happen for myself in the next 90 days.  


Why 90? I'm glad you asked. 


I have been part of an amazing company since last September.  I was introduced to this opportunity through my best friend and I can not thank her enough for the introduction.  I have learned so much about life, proper ways to think and my strength and weaknesses.  One of the first lessons that I received was based on  the miraculous power of 90 days.  This is the best kept secret EVER!   Most all self help authors, life coaches, and just plain ol' successful people know this secret .   Hear me when I say it is possible to change your entire life in 90 short days-- 3 months, 12 weeks , 7 days in each week.    These are all powerful strong numbers, believe it or not.  If you dont believe me its right here  ---> "Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain wisdom of heart." Psalms 90:12 . Nuff said.  


There are many things that I want to accomplish in life and 90 days surely wont be enough time. Sure I have 1 , 3 & 5 year goals written out but the truth of the matter is that most people can't stay focused that long on a goal to really see it manifest.  So it is imperative that you take tiny bites out of your major goals.  Starting small has always been difficult, com'n I am a Freakin ARIES!  When we want it , we want it now, fast and hard!  ( Lmao its 1:24am ,#dirtythoughts #dontjudgeme). 


To all who are curious, below is a list of e-ver-y-thing I hope will accomplish in my next 90 days here on earth , be it the Lord's will. 


Health and Wellness

• Release 20 lbs from my body.  (this is going to feel amazing)
• Work out 6 days a week 
• Put only foods that give me energy into my body (oh yeah! gotta keep that energy high)
• Make juicing a daily routine (gotta save up for an upscale juicer. I have a cheap $30 one)
• Take vitamins everyday ( I am a master pill popper LOL)

Beauty Regimen

• Have beauty days everyday Sunday & Wednesday (  I am on a natural hair journey and contrary to popular belief we naturalistas have to give our locs alot of TLC to maintain our hair's beauty) 
• Clean face twice a day ( no more going to sleep with makeup on)

Work and Business 

• For work
• 5 new trials a day
• 10 new leads a day
• If the numbers play out right this will guarantee me 2 sales a week
• For my business 
• Everyday from 6pm-9m I am in business mode!
• 2 new names or 2 new friendship farming candidates daily  
• Become a District Leader by end of 90 days
• 25 new recruits

If you are curious about my business , message me I would love to give you more info. 

Finances

• Save $3,000 ( Money is power and good energy)
• Running balance of at least $300 in my checking (I'm still contemplating this, just want a nice cushion in my checking , not too much cause I have a swiping problem)  ( Plus right now I need to save way more than I need to spend on anything)
• Tithe  ( 10% of all earnings going to the Lord)
• Start to pay off some of these creditors and raise my credit score 

I am sooo exited about this!  I know it may seem like a lot to the average person but these are all things I have thought hard about , tried, gave up,  came back for more and then gave up again.  So none of these are new ideas ,  but what's new is I am all in this time.  I have to do it!

I will be updating everyday to let you know my progress.   Message me or comment if you are interested in joining and/or starting your own 90 day journey!!  I would love to give you some encouraging words and maybe we can help keep each other accountable. 

"Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!"

Okay I am calling it a night. I have to do some serious prayer and meditation.  My flesh can't do this alone, Lord I stretch my hands to thee, no other help I know.  

90 days ends Wednesday October 26th, 2011

Tomorrow marks Day 1 

A night to Remember -- K.O.D in Miami!

First time in K.O.D and I had a blast .. strolled in my new 6inch hot pink pumps, wearing this awesome Little Black(freakum)Dress. My fro was Fierce, my energy was thru the roof and so was my confidence!!   There was nothing anybody could tell me ... I looked and felt good and I knew it!

Wale was in the building, livin' it up.  Just in case you didn't know he is my celebrity crush. I absolutely love this man, his lyrics, his music, his attitude. I just love it. Yeah I know sometimes he can be a little emo but he is dealing with super stardom, thats not easy for anyone.  Back to the story --  Me and the girls were walking thru this club and I kid you not, as soon as I turned my head to look over at VIP , Wale was starring me down.  I flashed my Hollywood smile at him and just kept dancing. Next thing I knew he was like 2 inches from my face, smiling right back at me.  Omg! He was even cuter in person , with his DMV accent he leaned closer to my ear and said  " I am enamored by your beauty. And I know you thinkin its just on a physical level but I swear something about you is different.  Your air is regal , your aura is bright and I can tell you just feel good in your own skin. And you stand out in this sea of vultures. (lol)  I don't want to impose on your girls night but I would love it if you all came up to my VIP booth to party with us. "

I almost fainted!  In my mind I was like 'is this really happening'?   Did Wale just come over to me and really speak those words.  Is confidence really that attractive?
 Okay OKAY  back to reality NON of that truly happened... I didn't go to KOD , I didn't meet Wale and he wasn't totally floored by my presence . Sorry if I burst anyone's bubble.   But what this daydream brought forth to my mind was the question : Is that type of confidence truly possible??  Or better yet is it possible for me, Jovonda,  to posses it.   It felt absolutely FABULOUS just to write about it , so I can only imagine what it must be like to feel that damn good about yourself at all times in real life.   A really good friend of mine text me when she found out Wale would be down in Miami last night and I briefly expressed to her the type of confidence I wish I had .
Me - I also wish I possessed more confidence. They type of confidence that I know I can walk in there stand out from a crowd and get his attention instantly.  Lmao!  Is that type of confidence possible?
Friend - It definitely is. Its about believing that you're captivating. Knowing that you're worth seeing and sending out energy that is inviting

WOW! As u can see my friend is very intelligent! I love her even more for sending that to me @ 8am on a Saturday morning.    So just maybe Wale isn't just Wale. Maybe Wale and my extreme desire for him is a symbol of the magic of the confidence that's buried deep down in me.   My night at K.O.D. with Wale could very well be a quick glimpse of the power and energy that I can be blessed with just by taking my mind to that place.


DayDreamers RULE!

Poppin my Cherry -- Not an inch of Fear!

That was a beautifully , well crafted, extremely thought out title for my first blog post ever!   Okay Okay maybe not , I thought of it in two seconds felt as though it was kinda clever and I wrote it. No turning back. No Fear.  That's been the main theme in my life for almost a year. Fear is crippling  and I seriously think my mission right now  is to conquer every inch of it that rests within me..  "Its Now or Never".
Where there is nothing left to lose, there is nothing left to fear. - South Sudan Proverb

If you are to become a reader of this blog then you must fall in love with   brace yourself for  the overused quotes (often times misused and misunderstood by the masses).   You see the thing is I LOVE quick , thought provoking sayings  they really get my mind going, take me to a place that most realistic people can't go to with something so simple.     (That was me getting deep)

This is going to be funnn !!!  I promise and if it isn't feel free to let me know. I'll quickly imagine that you are indeed having the time of your life reading this blog, but for some reason its just oh so hard for you to express it and I'll just keep on keeping on with the way I want to do things.  LOL see  how my mind works... I can go any where with it and I humbly invite you to go there with me.  If you're ready.

DayDreamers Unite!

Sidenote:  I hope to increase my vocabulary while producing this blog.  I am tired of these minuscule words that I use to describe my incessant thoughts and impassioned feelings. New Words!!