One more day!!! - Day 50

Tomorrow is probably going to be the best day of my life!  Even though it's my friend's Bday , its still the best day of my life!  I'm finally traveling on a plane..to party, reunite and love on all my girlfriends!   Believe it or not the thought of a fun filled weekend scared me.    Crazy, I know.  But I'm such an over thinker,  what will I wear? My hair..my shoes...will there be enough liquor flowing for my nerves to be eased... will I have fun.. will I mesh with the new girls?   That's the silly stuff that runs through my mind , miraculously I am not stressed at all about this trip.    I haven't packed, don't have new clothes , accessories, fighting with my hair and I just don't care!   Lol . I AM  going to have a GRAND time , probably wont even want to leave.  

BREAKING NEWS ALERT - WALE , my ultimate celeb crush, is going to performing at a club in the 'Urrea'!!!   If this isn't a sign that this weekend is going to be amazing, I don't know what is.

So its currently 7:48am,   I have worked out with my trainer, showered, juiced, read my emails and blogged. #Winning.  I feel great.   And I hope that you do too.  If you aren't just stop to give thanks, doesn't matter what it is for just say Thank you Jesus, Thank you Father. Since my personal New Year, I find myself just saying those words for no reason.  Well, excuse me,  there are plenty of reasons to be thankful  but I don't have one particular one in my mind when I am saying it.   Sometimes I just need a boost and those words just do it for me.   Thank you Lord.

Sidenote- I almost cried this morning, probably should have just let it out.  If you haven't already go and subscribe to The Daily Love emails.  The author was talking about vulnerability. Taking chances by being your authentic self and accepting the possibility of being abandoned. The affirmations of the day :
I choose to see things going wrong as a part of something great going right.

Chaos is my friend, I meet it with faith.

 

I enjoy not knowing what's going to happen next and take a step out in faith.

Remember when  I said I am currently struggling with some internal things. This email hit the spot. Really helped me to realize that everything is going to be okay.  I'm still scared though.....

Later today I will tell you about my  awkward, whack DATE! Lol , Are ready for this?


Have a blessed one!

Happy New Year!!

Hiiii Blog, oh how I missed thee!!

Where have I been for the last few weeks? I don't know.  What weight have I lost? None.   What money have I saved?  $0.   What revelations have I had?  LOTS!    

Work brought me back to my beloved old stomping grounds, Tallahassee FL, for two weeks.  In those two weeks I made a road trip to Panama City Beach and Jacksonville, to visit some old friends.   Labor day weekend was the wildest, funniest, weirdest, and most thought provoking weekend I have had in a long time.   Two of my really close friends live in Duval and we always have a GRAND time when we get together.  De and E!  I love these women, being with them makes me feel so blessed.  God has given me great friends who are just all around positive people .  De and E have HUGE dreams and even Bigger goals  for their life and I know they can and will accomplish anything they set their mind to.  Watch out world, these are two super successful Naturalistas!

I was so inspired by my friends. I miss them and their energy... directly and indirectly they both gave hope for the future. Let me know its okay to start over , forget the past and re-label yourself.   That's so refreshing.    

So I toasted to Labor Day 2011 being my personal New Year!       

Let's see ,  I rehired myself in both work places.  I am starting fresh with weight loss, hired a personal trainer and got a gym membership (Gary is awesome!).  I've also been secretly going through some really personal stuff. Without putting it all out there, --I struggle with being proud of myself and attaching my feeling of success to what I have or haven't done in the past.  I am not kind to myself and I want to forget everything and just keep moving forward. I want to hold my head high, no matter what and I want God's glory to manifest through me.   I am nothing without him, foolish and weak.  But if he can get me through this and allow me to come out on top and full of Godly Confidence(NOT self confidence); I will share my story with the world , giving him all the Glory and honor.  

Ahhhhhhh.... I forgot how good it feels to write out my feelings.  I have fallen back in love with you , Blog. And I promise never to let you go. 

Sidenote-- I went on a date. I should update about that!!  I think I will ;-)