WTH!! - DAYS: 1, 2 & 3

"...that Devil sure is busy,"  said the old black church lady.     And she is 100% right.   Why Why Why!?   Okay I need to ask better questions , I came to the conclusion that its not why but HOW are all my super ambitious 90 day goals going to be accomplished?  Its definitely not by eating all types of food, staying out late, and drinking. 

  

Here's how the last 3 days have passed me by:

Day 1 - Tues July 26th 

No early morning workout . (My plan was to rise early in the mornings and get my workout in at 7am)

One new trial for work .  (I have a serious case of being easily distracted my surfing the web) 

No new names for my business ( Ugh!)

Hit Wet Willies with a friend for her birthday ( Only had one superman)

Stuffed my face with Smoked Chicken Nachos and Buffalo Wings

Went to Banana Boat to continue the festivities @11pm 

2 more drinks-Ladies Night drinks were free (rum and coke, then a corona) 

& lets not forget the Birthday Cake Shot that was on the house !  ( I asked for the recipe, I swear it tasted exactly like Chocolate Cake)

Had to take friend home and go to drive even further to take a cousin home. (Arrived in my bed at 2:30am)

Day 2 - Wednesday July 27th

Slept in till about noon!  ( Ugh! cheap liquor and late nights do not mix)

Got up showered and went straight into my office to start work (I work from home)

Hit my New Trial Goal ! 5 NEW!  (very proud of myself. I was soo determined not to make this a waste of a day 1:30pm-5pm)

Birthday Dinner @ Cafe Centro with the girls( Today was the actual birthday , yesterday was Pre-Gaming)

Dinner :  Beet Salad, Black Linguine, with calamari, shrimp, arugula in a spicy tomato sauce  (Lets not even count the calories, just know it was worth every last one =)

2 Glasses of Wine 

Dessert :  Gourmet Raspberry Cake with Cream Cheese Icing

Left dinner around 10pm

Went to visit a few more friends around 11pm .. chilled to about 1am 

Back home for the late night munchie session , in bed around 2am (AGAIN!)

Day 3 - Thursday July 28th

Woke up late again . 11am (No work out) 

Attended a Hispanic Journalist Social ( for work, in an effort to socialize and get new trials)

My team scheduled a Opportunity Meeting today before close of  business for the month ( I didn't attend, I had no guests invited because I have been goofing off all week)

Took a nap 

Deep conditioned my hair 

Now I'm writing this blog

Needless to say I am Extremely dissapointed with myself : -(   There should be no excuse for the horrible way I managed by time these past few days.  Little Voice in Head :  "But it was your best friend's birthday, you don't do this all the time. Don't beat yourself up about it." Yeah but I also don't ask God  to help me to change my life in 90 days all the time either. That little voice is the easy way out , excuses usually are, but let me remind you that excuses have a shelf life of about 24 hours.    And when I woke up this morning  afternoon , there was no excuse in sight to comfort me.   The ever wise group of people who refer to themselves as 'They'  told me that  Its not suppose to be easy, its suppose to be worth it.     And they are so right , once again.  

One of the leaders in my business also one of my awesome mentors who I will refer to as Poppa Jack had a conversation with me about the differences between us.  Poppa Jack can sit in his recliner all day and still  get paid out about a quarter Million each year.  Yet he doesn't sit around all day, he's still a very hard worker, still has goals to reach , that's why I admire him.   Granted this guy is a high school dropout , yet still figured out a way to create extraordinary wealth for himself and his beautiful family.    Plenty of differences (as you can see) but he refuses to believe that his wealth , education level, and/or age is the major different between him and I.    "I'm human, I get down on myself  just like you do and I have not so good moments just like you.  However the difference between you and I is how long I choose to stay down."    Wowwwww!  He continues " I don't let myself sulk for days , not even a hour for that matter.  I find the problem and I fix it immediately. Done."

I love him!    Here's what I need to fix :

• Late nights -- I promise to myself and everyone else I am in my bed no later than 11pm every single weekday. I might allow myself one weekend night to run a muck.  But that is it.
• Working out -- trickles down from the late nights. If I am in bed early I will be able to rise easily to get my workout in. My workouts are appointments that I can and will not miss #affirm
• Drinking during the week.   Just Say No.
• Not having my food for the day planned out.   Changing my eating habits for life is a decision. Decide - means to kill all other options
• Journaling or blogging this journey every single day.  Even if I can't write whole stories. At the very least, I promise to update with a brief overview of what I did for the day.  
• Oh and no web surfing during work.  I will give myself 5 minute web breaks when I hit goals. 

 

87 more days to go and I am already learning monumental lessons on this journey.   Commitment ,Commitment ,Commitment -  to make the decision before you have to make the decision.    #Thinkaboutit! 

Good Night.  Its 9 minutes past my bed time. 

The Power of 90 DAYS

I have a confession , a major one.   I am a non do-er.  I like to complain about stuff, talk about how much I want change and I never Ever accomplish anything.   Ahhhh wow!  I am really pleased with myself for being able to get that down and dirty and real about who I am, right now.    'They' say that is the first step-- admitting.  They then told me that  Step 2 is to make a plan and put it into action. (okay I made that up I don't know what they say about Step 2).    But One thing for sure is that I am tired of not living my life to its full potential.  If you know me then I am pretty sure you think of me as bubbly, colorful and full of life... I may be that on the surface but deep down I am and have always been screaming for a significant change.  The type of change that will raise my belief in the 'You can do anything you put your mind to'  principle.   I strongly believe that it is possible and I am going to make it happen for myself in the next 90 days.  


Why 90? I'm glad you asked. 


I have been part of an amazing company since last September.  I was introduced to this opportunity through my best friend and I can not thank her enough for the introduction.  I have learned so much about life, proper ways to think and my strength and weaknesses.  One of the first lessons that I received was based on  the miraculous power of 90 days.  This is the best kept secret EVER!   Most all self help authors, life coaches, and just plain ol' successful people know this secret .   Hear me when I say it is possible to change your entire life in 90 short days-- 3 months, 12 weeks , 7 days in each week.    These are all powerful strong numbers, believe it or not.  If you dont believe me its right here  ---> "Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain wisdom of heart." Psalms 90:12 . Nuff said.  


There are many things that I want to accomplish in life and 90 days surely wont be enough time. Sure I have 1 , 3 & 5 year goals written out but the truth of the matter is that most people can't stay focused that long on a goal to really see it manifest.  So it is imperative that you take tiny bites out of your major goals.  Starting small has always been difficult, com'n I am a Freakin ARIES!  When we want it , we want it now, fast and hard!  ( Lmao its 1:24am ,#dirtythoughts #dontjudgeme). 


To all who are curious, below is a list of e-ver-y-thing I hope will accomplish in my next 90 days here on earth , be it the Lord's will. 


Health and Wellness

• Release 20 lbs from my body.  (this is going to feel amazing)
• Work out 6 days a week 
• Put only foods that give me energy into my body (oh yeah! gotta keep that energy high)
• Make juicing a daily routine (gotta save up for an upscale juicer. I have a cheap $30 one)
• Take vitamins everyday ( I am a master pill popper LOL)

Beauty Regimen

• Have beauty days everyday Sunday & Wednesday (  I am on a natural hair journey and contrary to popular belief we naturalistas have to give our locs alot of TLC to maintain our hair's beauty) 
• Clean face twice a day ( no more going to sleep with makeup on)

Work and Business 

• For work
• 5 new trials a day
• 10 new leads a day
• If the numbers play out right this will guarantee me 2 sales a week
• For my business 
• Everyday from 6pm-9m I am in business mode!
• 2 new names or 2 new friendship farming candidates daily  
• Become a District Leader by end of 90 days
• 25 new recruits

If you are curious about my business , message me I would love to give you more info. 

Finances

• Save $3,000 ( Money is power and good energy)
• Running balance of at least $300 in my checking (I'm still contemplating this, just want a nice cushion in my checking , not too much cause I have a swiping problem)  ( Plus right now I need to save way more than I need to spend on anything)
• Tithe  ( 10% of all earnings going to the Lord)
• Start to pay off some of these creditors and raise my credit score 

I am sooo exited about this!  I know it may seem like a lot to the average person but these are all things I have thought hard about , tried, gave up,  came back for more and then gave up again.  So none of these are new ideas ,  but what's new is I am all in this time.  I have to do it!

I will be updating everyday to let you know my progress.   Message me or comment if you are interested in joining and/or starting your own 90 day journey!!  I would love to give you some encouraging words and maybe we can help keep each other accountable. 

"Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!"

Okay I am calling it a night. I have to do some serious prayer and meditation.  My flesh can't do this alone, Lord I stretch my hands to thee, no other help I know.  

90 days ends Wednesday October 26th, 2011

Tomorrow marks Day 1 

A night to Remember -- K.O.D in Miami!

First time in K.O.D and I had a blast .. strolled in my new 6inch hot pink pumps, wearing this awesome Little Black(freakum)Dress. My fro was Fierce, my energy was thru the roof and so was my confidence!!   There was nothing anybody could tell me ... I looked and felt good and I knew it!

Wale was in the building, livin' it up.  Just in case you didn't know he is my celebrity crush. I absolutely love this man, his lyrics, his music, his attitude. I just love it. Yeah I know sometimes he can be a little emo but he is dealing with super stardom, thats not easy for anyone.  Back to the story --  Me and the girls were walking thru this club and I kid you not, as soon as I turned my head to look over at VIP , Wale was starring me down.  I flashed my Hollywood smile at him and just kept dancing. Next thing I knew he was like 2 inches from my face, smiling right back at me.  Omg! He was even cuter in person , with his DMV accent he leaned closer to my ear and said  " I am enamored by your beauty. And I know you thinkin its just on a physical level but I swear something about you is different.  Your air is regal , your aura is bright and I can tell you just feel good in your own skin. And you stand out in this sea of vultures. (lol)  I don't want to impose on your girls night but I would love it if you all came up to my VIP booth to party with us. "

I almost fainted!  In my mind I was like 'is this really happening'?   Did Wale just come over to me and really speak those words.  Is confidence really that attractive?
 Okay OKAY  back to reality NON of that truly happened... I didn't go to KOD , I didn't meet Wale and he wasn't totally floored by my presence . Sorry if I burst anyone's bubble.   But what this daydream brought forth to my mind was the question : Is that type of confidence truly possible??  Or better yet is it possible for me, Jovonda,  to posses it.   It felt absolutely FABULOUS just to write about it , so I can only imagine what it must be like to feel that damn good about yourself at all times in real life.   A really good friend of mine text me when she found out Wale would be down in Miami last night and I briefly expressed to her the type of confidence I wish I had .
Me - I also wish I possessed more confidence. They type of confidence that I know I can walk in there stand out from a crowd and get his attention instantly.  Lmao!  Is that type of confidence possible?
Friend - It definitely is. Its about believing that you're captivating. Knowing that you're worth seeing and sending out energy that is inviting

WOW! As u can see my friend is very intelligent! I love her even more for sending that to me @ 8am on a Saturday morning.    So just maybe Wale isn't just Wale. Maybe Wale and my extreme desire for him is a symbol of the magic of the confidence that's buried deep down in me.   My night at K.O.D. with Wale could very well be a quick glimpse of the power and energy that I can be blessed with just by taking my mind to that place.


DayDreamers RULE!

Poppin my Cherry -- Not an inch of Fear!

That was a beautifully , well crafted, extremely thought out title for my first blog post ever!   Okay Okay maybe not , I thought of it in two seconds felt as though it was kinda clever and I wrote it. No turning back. No Fear.  That's been the main theme in my life for almost a year. Fear is crippling  and I seriously think my mission right now  is to conquer every inch of it that rests within me..  "Its Now or Never".
Where there is nothing left to lose, there is nothing left to fear. - South Sudan Proverb

If you are to become a reader of this blog then you must fall in love with   brace yourself for  the overused quotes (often times misused and misunderstood by the masses).   You see the thing is I LOVE quick , thought provoking sayings  they really get my mind going, take me to a place that most realistic people can't go to with something so simple.     (That was me getting deep)

This is going to be funnn !!!  I promise and if it isn't feel free to let me know. I'll quickly imagine that you are indeed having the time of your life reading this blog, but for some reason its just oh so hard for you to express it and I'll just keep on keeping on with the way I want to do things.  LOL see  how my mind works... I can go any where with it and I humbly invite you to go there with me.  If you're ready.

DayDreamers Unite!

Sidenote:  I hope to increase my vocabulary while producing this blog.  I am tired of these minuscule words that I use to describe my incessant thoughts and impassioned feelings. New Words!!